Hi there; newbie here. I just wanted to reply to say I feel much the same way. I only found YY this past October, and have been infatuated with and addicted to it since. Many thanks and much gratitude to Yada and KP. I'm far from through with studying it, but I feel quite isolated with the knowledge and long to share it with and study it and revel in the Word as it was written, in the physical presence of others.
My to-be husband was, unfortunately (and unwillingly) raised Catholic, and as a result he's developed an affliction for anything remotely seeming religious. (God damn religion) So getting through to him has been and is challenging, but I've always liked a challenge and I've managed to plant a few seeds so far, now I just hope Yah causes them to grow. Since he is the person I am mainly in contact with, and my circle of friends is very small, in spite of the fact that we just moved to a new town in another state just this past autumn, I greatly rely on the internet. But it's just not the same as being there, in the presence of others, being in the Spirit together. There's nothing like that.
I took a look around at all the churches in our new town, and they're all the Sunday kind that say Lord and the like. I was raised in the Lutheran church, and fortunately for me, we had the advantage of being a really small church with a congregation of less than 100, and the church was located in the middle of a cornfield and nowhere so, despite the shortcomings of the religious aspects, we had a real sense of fellowship, young and old alike. It was there I learned to walk with Yah, even though I didn't know His name as such. I didn't learn His name until after I had left the church and gone to college where, ironically, I met a man born and raised in the Middle East outside of Israel, who informed me that His personal name was Yahweh. I never forgot this name, and I never heard it again until I found YY, or until YY found me.
I have close relatives to share with, but they live nowhere near. And since I can no longer sit in a church pew without being disgusted with all the pagan crap while I am not quite yet armed and ready to enter a brand new place to me and challenge its customs and doctrines, I feel quite alone here. But the good news is I feel less alone than ever. Only thrice I've truly walked with Yah, and this third has been the longest walk yet (to be completely truthful, once it was a bike ride). Thanks to YY and the works of Yada and KP, I've finally been able to get off the religious roller coaster and come to know, understand, and trust Yahuweh, and I'm in the honeymoon period of relationship forming. And every day that I study His profound, incredible, magnificent, timeless and eternal Word, this relationship develops and continues to develop, and for that I feel accompanied and occupied, and in perpetual awe.
Regardless, sharing your life with Yah is one thing, sharing in Yah with your brothers and sisters is another. Perhaps at some point in the future, as time passes and relationships develop, there will be a YY camp-out at a designated place where brothers and sisters unite and strengthen each other in the family, as families are so inclined.
I am so thankful for all of you who contribute with such patience to those of us less inclined to understand the Word as it is written, the "lost sheep" wandering in confusion - authors and the forum users alike. While I once felt like an 'alien in a foreign land', I finally feel as though I've found a home away from home, through all of you and of course, in Yahuweh. My gratitude extends to all who participate at this forum- who expend their energy communicating Yah's testimony, calling in His lost sheep and helping to lead them home.