In His Name wrote: My Dad was a D-day paratrooper who quietly carried his wounds of war and killing for 60 years
While we are on the subject....
(Feel free to roll your eyes and say to yourself 'Here he goes again...')
None of us steely-eyed-barrel-chested-two-fisted-jungle-warriors thinks that going off to war thinking it is a great sacrifice. For some, it becomes a great sacrifice, but not all.
The stereotype of a warrior who was in a war but "doesn't want to talk about it", is largely false.
The reason most of us joined the Marines is so that we would have "war stories" to talk about!
(I don't know why anyone would join The Army.) :-)
Training, deployment and even getting shot at are stories that we love to tell. (Over and over again, my wife points out.)
I think it was Churchill who said that there is no greater thrill than "being shot at, and missed!".
The part that a combat warrior "doesn't want to talk about" is the taking of another man's life.
The saying that goes "There are no atheists in foxholes." could not be more true. The cultural imprint that all Westerners have is that if you kill an enemy soldier (even under the best of circumstances: D-Day, WW2, Tarawa, Iwo Jima, etc.) is that:
A) You sent this poor non-Christian to Hell
or
B) You killed a brother Christian
This is the 'burden of guilt' that warriors who have been in contact with the enemy and done their job carry with them.
For some, the burden is too much and they decide to shoot up a post office and/or shopping mall.
For others, like In His Name's father, they suffer with the guilt, quietly for the rest of their lives.
I thank YHWH for illuminating the doctrine of "door number two" by way of Yada and KP.
The idea that most who die will
not be sent to an eternal punishment really changes how I look at things.
The relief from that burden of guilt felt greater than that of the forgiveness of sin offered by Yasheweh. (The latter occurred in childhood, the former took place last summer, so it may be an apples and oranges comparison, but that is how it
felt)
Please remember, I am speaking in broad generalities here, there will be exceptions to what has been said here, regarding people's experiences and feelings.